Bila harus memilih (~_~)

First and foremost, zillion thanks to all of you who has leave your wishes and pray for my success in my previous entry: Dear Ms Luck,...please be with me today!. I've make new friend at Kitakyushu because masa nak cari Rihga Royal Hotel tu, I was going to the different direction. Luckily I bumped into a kind Japanese girl who can converse in English fluently as her boyfriend is Scottish. Ms Yuriko accompany me to the hotel lobby and we even exchanged our contact number plus dah siap add kat FB lagik hihi.


I met the Chairman and her Vice Chairman at the hotel cafe where we had a brief introductory session about my study, my family background and my life. Later on, I was invited to join the dinner at the hotel's meeting room where I was introduced to the other 20 members of the club which were successful & wealthy middle-age women. Alhamdulillah things went pretty well through the 'selling' session with the Kitakyushu Zonta International Club.


As the Amelia Earhart Fellowship is offered only to women pursuing Phd in Aerospace Engineering, those 20 women shot me numerous question regarding to why I choose to study Aerospace Engineering in the first place, what & who inspired me to study in this field and the relation of wind engineering in aerospace engineering. *Makcik2 ni ingat, Aerospace Engineering cuma berkait dengan angkasa lepas dan space shuttle je. Pastu siap tanya I nak tak gi kat angkasa lepas. Bila I jawab I ni ada flight sickness, semua gelakkan I ekekeke*. There were also questions regarding to the status of women in Malaysia, the population of Malaysia (*I jawab tak sure sbb I memang tak tahu berapa population Malaysia, sigh..rakyat yg durhaka sungguh hik3x*), the number of women ministry in Malaysian parliament (*yang ni pun I bantai je cakap 5 org dr 20 menteri ngeee betul ke eh?*), the percentage of working women in Malaysia (*yang ni I confidently jawab 90% of Malaysian women is working*) and etc.


Actually this session is not really an interview for applying the scholarship but it is more on getting the support from the club to help me with my application. As this fellowship is offered by US Zonta International Club, the Kitakyushu Zonta International Club will recommend me to the respective person in US to add extra 'bonus' point in my application. However, the application for this year is already closed thus I have to wait for the next year application to apply for this fellowship.


Overall I am pretty happy with the session as they pay for my travel expenses to go to the hotel *diorang bagi duit poket 10000￥ = RM 380* + belanja me a nice dinner with all the food I can eat + present me with famous sweets from Kitakyushu to bring it home ...best kan?. Since duit tiket di taja, I pergi naik Tokiu Express Train *40 minit from Hakata-Kokura* dan I balik naik bullet train (shinkansen) *20minit from Kokura-Hakata*. I reached home at 9p.m dan cepat2 gi amik my little angel kat rumah kak Azma.

*Sweet Sweets Gifts from the Kitakyushu Zonta International Club*

*spacious & comfortable legroom inside the Tokiu Express*

On another related stories regarding to my interview session before this, I am now tested to pick the decision that I believe is the best for my life. Here's the choices that are waiting for me to decide which one should I pick? :-

(1) IPTA in Malacca
I've wrote in the entry: Off on the right foot ~ hopefully ~ about this interview and how I am not confident I will get it as I've explained in the entry: Back in the Fukuoka's saddle. Last month, I've received the offer letter from them that offered me to be a lecturer gred DS45. The salary & allowance agak best but I have to go back to Malaysia *without finishing my PhD* and start working with them immediately and wait for another few years before pursuing my PhD again huhu.


(2) IPTA in Johor
I've also wrote in the entry: Off to Tokyo...........................*again* about this 2nd interview that I've attended and the questions that I've to deal with in the entry: Of interview thingy. I can say that the feedback is positive, BUT if possible they wanted me to change my field of study into a more aeronautical engineering studies rather than applied aeronautical engineering studies as I'm doing right now. Changing topic would mean that I'll have to start the application process all over again + change my PhD supervisor + change the the different campus + wait for the next enrollment which will be on next October --> complicated!.


(3) IPTA in Selangor
I received a letter this morning which informed me to attend an interview session on 25th March huhu. Since I've just come back from Malaysia, I don't think it is possible for me to go back again in the nearest time *duit claim tiket balik hari tu pun tak masuk dalam akaun lagi hohohoh*. Thus, I hope I'd be able to convince them to reschedule the interview into another possible date yang I pun tak tahu bila lagi huhu.


Those three options needed my answer by this week and I'm still thinking about the pros and cons of it. Walaupun I still tak ada scholarship, tapi Alhamdulillah Allah bagi rezeki yang lain pulak untuk my family. Both hubby & I ada dapat sikit gaji for our arubaito (part time job) dari lab which I can put it as enough untuk bayar my tuition fee sebanyak 280 000yen=RM11000 every 6 months tu huhu *walaupun lepas bayar yuran hidup jadi agak 'semput', tapi masih boleh bernafas dalam lumpur lagi hehe*. Plus, starting from next month, baby SN has been accepted to enter the public nursery where we were entitled to received the free monthly charge as both of us are students..yea yea..dah jimat duit 36540yen=RM1400 yang buat bayar yuran private nursery baby SN yang sekarang ni *refer: Mommy & Baby SN goes to school*.


I am always positive with my life and I always believe with the choices that I've made so far. I have faith in Allah that He has set the best path for me and I would just follow the flow wisely. Life is always lingering around choices and picking up the best choice that you think will serve you the best. I percaya tak selamanya mendung akan berarak dalam hidup..therell be one fine day where mentari akan bersinar terang memancarkan sinarnya untuk menerangi hidup I ceeewahhhh. Anyway, ini I nak share sepotong doa yang boleh di amalkan setiap hari.

"Ya Allah, cukupkanlah kepadaku dengan rezekiMu yang halal dan perkayakanlah aku dengan limpah kurniaMu daripada meminta kepada yang lain daripadaMu"

Psssssttt: supervisor I dah bagi borang untuk apply sponsorship dari universiti kalau I nak balik Malaysia lagi next semester...kui3x. macam tahu2 je student dia ni asyik nak balik je ekekeke.