Hari ni pukul 5 pagi dah kena bangun dan bersiap-siap. As I've mentioned yesterday, hubby is going to Tokyo to pick up his new passport. His flight was at 7 a.m; thus we had to be at the airport by 6:30 a.m.
Since Nazhan is having chicken pox, he was not allowed to go to the nursery for the whole week. Yesterday I've already took a day of from lab. Thus, today I have to go to the lab to carry on with my research.
Therefore, I have no other option than to agree with hubby's suggestion to let him bring Nazhan along with him to Tokyo. This will be hubby's and Nazhan's 2nd time of a trip to Tokyo without mommy tagging along. Their first trip to Tokyo were on August 2009 when Nazhan was only 3 months old at that time.
Nazhan was having quite a hard time last night. I bet Nazhan feel itchy because he was scratching his head and also other parts of his body last night. It is difficult to keep his hand away from scratching the spots as this can lead to scarring. He wasn't really sleeping last night, so I hope Nazhan is not that cranky and giving hubby hard time today.
At first, I refused to let hubby bring Nazhan to Tokyo with him today. Banyak sebab kenapa I tak berapa nak setuju hubby bawak Nazhan hari ni. I am well aware of the fact that hubby can take great care of Nazhan and that everything will be under control. I also knew my boy is a well-behaved boy. The thing is, I risau dengan keadaan kesihatan Nazhan yang tak berapa menentu tu. I juga rasa risau orang lain akan terjangkit dengan Nazhan pulak. Tapi, kami memang dah tiada pilihan lain.
- Nak cuti lab lagi sehari hari ni, I ada few datelines kerja yang kena siapkan hari ni.
- Nak tinggal kat rumah member Malaysia yang lain pun, takut jangkit kat anak diorang pulak.
- Nak bawak datang lab pun kalau dia merengek je, takut ganggu orang lain pulak.
- Hubby nak bawak pergi Tokyo tu pun, kitorang risau jugak takut dia sebar virus tu kat orang lain pulak.
Sigh~ ibaratnya di luah mati emak di telan mati bapak. Macamana pun, kami tetap kena ambil salah satu keputusan di atas.
I just hope their journey today went well. Nazhan pun pagi tadi masa kat airport excited sebab nak naik aircraft dan dapat jalan-jalan dengan daddy kat Tokyo. Tak sabar tunggu flight diorang balik ke Fukuoka pukul 8 malam ni. Nasib baik diorang pergi balik hari je, tu pun mommy dah rasa resah gelisah serba tak kena mengenangkan kedua-dua lelaki kesayangan mommy ni ke Tokyo tanpa mommy.
I guess this is the price that we have to pay when hubby & I decided to further our studies in a foreign country, far away from our family. Semoga pengorbanan kami sekeluarga tidak sia-sia.
Psssstttt : kadang-kadang rasa bersalah membuak-buak dalam diri bila terpaksa mengorbankan kepentingan anak demi kepentingan lain. Ya Allah, tepatkah keputusan yang telah ku ambil ini?.